i'm not very good with schedules. i feel so trapped. 

and so it is monday night again, and i am in a horrid mood. i'm getting sick of this routine and even the things that i love/look forward to seem mundane and boring. i was so happy this morning and now i am being so negative. 

it doesn't help that i am annoyed at everyone right now (mostly for no fault of their own, except in one particular case, not naming names).  

i need a vacation. i don't know what i need.  what i want.  

 i talked to bryan for an hour today and then we hung up and i cried because i wish we were in the same place and i wish life were easier. 

now i am home alone, listening to gregory on repeat (RIP

but honestly, what's the point ?