lost & found

So.  It's almost February and I've been keeping up with my resolutions pretty well.

I feel more self-confident than ever. I've been insanely happy --- although right now, I am veering towards unhappy. Because I am exhausted. --- I have been incredibly focused (a rarity), really motivated, and just super productive.  I wake up super early to go to the gym before class. I ran five miles in less than 50 minutes! Which is awesome for me. And really, not bad at all in general. I haven't been drunk since New Year's Eve. I've been seeing friends who I neglected for the entirety of last semester.

I feel super focused on myself and super attuned to what I want.

And at the same time, I feel horrible and selfish, because I am neglecting people who ... need me.

Some of my friends are more projects. I work really hard on them and love them until I decide that I'm getting nothing out of it. And then I stop. Suddenly.  One day, I just wake up and decide that it's unhealthy for me to carry on in such a manner. I'm not getting anything out of the relationship. And it's draining.

What am I supposed to do about that?

Is it too selfish if I pick me over someone else?  But then again, isn't that the point of living one's own life???