this . . .

today i woke up sad. it doesn't seem as if i'll snap out of it, so i'm just waiting til tomorrow.

i realize now that, except for sometimes kristin, i have absolutely no one to call to come save me from the monotony that is my everyday life at the moment. it's mostly my fault. i could've made more of an effort. but any effort just seemed so useless at the time. we don't have anything in common anymore and i wish it could be different. i feel like that awkward day over spring break that i spent at the beach with brittany was my last chance, and it failed miserably. uncomfortable silences and not much to talk about.

it is what it is, but i wish it were different.

and i don't have a car, because one of them is broken, and my parents need the other cars to take to work. so i can't even go shopping or just drive.

i'll see bryan in two weeks. thank god.

and until then, there's this...