i was going to say i was mad but that's not entirely true. sans espoir or sad, yes, maybe.

today had ups and downs.
let's go over the downs :
-bad dream
-crying on way to class
-international postage fees
-i fucked up because i have a big mouth
-leaving my bag with my money, credit cards, metro cards, gift certificates, keychain, IDs, and lucky ten euros in silver. not realizing til i was all the way by 7th ave. running back sobbing. finding my bag.
-it was really cold

ups :
- i stalked the set of gossip girl for two hours instead of doing my homework. i saw little j and lonely boy and rufus. dan humphrey/penn badgley looked at me. he was beautiful.
- i'm not dead.