across an ocean

this is another post entitled "i miss my best friend" because bah, nobody else makes me giggle so much and nobody else knows what i am thinking without me saying anything. nobody else knows what i got them for christmas after all i said is "i got you a christmas present." "is it something soft?" "i don't know." "so i really need to go scarf shopping..." bah, cette vie, la distance, quoi...c'est too-much. it is worse, much worse after skyping. and with this schedule, that only can happen once a week now.

anyway. i'm annoyed that it's monday again/already. quite annoyed. i didn't finish my homework. i have so much reading and it takes me such a fucking long time to do.

last night was our valentine-making-party and it was wonderful, quite wonderful to see everyone and to have everyone in the same room again. freshman year was...magique, quoi.

i hung out with molly and cooper and genvie the other day. it was so nice. i want to do that often.

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what have i learned lately? nothing huge. i suppose this is something i always already knew, but the words of it finally popped into my head. anyway. circumstances will change and you just have to figure out how to deal with them. otherwise you'll be stuck. and it's easier if you just roll with it and don't dwell on how things used to be. i learned that nobody really knows what they're doing; it's not just me. there's comfort in knowing that, whatever happens, we're in this together, me and you. and we'll figure it out together. i'm actually still not alone. it's easier when you have someone. i don't know why i doubt the forever-ness of it all. it's been so long and so much that now it's a forever-kind-of-thing. it's gotta be.

i still think about danielle almost every day. her 21st birthday would be in a month and a day. she won't even get to turn 21.