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david and alan's house is RIDICULOUS. it is nicer than any hotel i've stayed at. and yes, i think that includes ireland's ashford castle, one of the top 100 hotels in the whole wide world. i will never get to have a house like that, i'm sure.

i had such a relaxing weekend upstate. i was able to see more stars than maybe i've ever seen in my life -- or at least a long while.

when we dropped my brother off at new paltz, i was jealous. i had always wanted to go to school in new paltz. i would've fit in ridiculously easy and wouldn't have to dress up for class and wouldn't be stressed out about anything, because it's impossible not to be relaxed and enjoy nature and the daily things there. such a small town, such a different life.

i absolutely hate cities, yet i'm obsessed with them. they keep pulling me in, and i long for a quieter life... i wonder if i'll ever get that.

but hahaha, if i had gone to new paltz, how different my life would be!!!!! i wouldn't have you all. i probably wouldn't have gone to paris, either. and i certainly wouldn't be going back and forth to visit bryan...